The heat is on

I am back. I am also happy to say that I have heat. No longer will I have to sleep with a hoodie on and my ears covered. I am three thousand dollars lighter and I really cannot show off the new furnace to my friends and family, but I could not do that with the new roof either. Oh well, at least I am safe in the knowledge that I will have heat this winter. I am assuming that the new furnace is not a "lemon" but that is all I can do and I am aware of that assumption, so if something should go wrong, I will get it fixed.

Are there in law stories to tell? Of course there are. I could go into my own families psychopathology but what fun is that. I mean we all admit we are nuts so it is something of which we all have a sense of self awareness. Not my in laws. I mean getting locked in the bathroom is a telling problem that will be ignored because the conclusions to be drawn are too frightening to grasp. I mean the man, sweet as he is in a gruff sort of way, has become (or has he always been) oblivious to anything that goes on around him.

That is okay for him, I am just not sure about those around him, though. They seem to live in their own sort of denial. All are planning for the worst, but not LIVING in the present. The future is certain, it is only a matter of when, not if. My mother in law can "wait" for the worst and put her life on hold but the question I have is what do you do when all is said and done and realize that the time spent "waiting" was wasted by not ENJOYING it and doing something with it? It is not my cross to bear but I am sure some sort of emotional bullshit the derives from that scenario is going to be dumped upon me in the future. It is just that I see possibilities and options but nobody wants or is capable of seeing the forest for the trees.

It all comes down to awareness, of self and all that is around. Living in the moment, the here and now. I am far from perfect but at least I can see ahead. It is like a chess game and you have to be able to see the possibilities eight moves ahead. This is not occurring and does not occur amongst any of my in laws, or wife for that matter.

I heard something I found funny Monday night while out with "Luigi" for Halloween. I was listening to a couple of kids saying that when they get there own homes, they will not buy stuff for Halloween. It is a "rip off" to give strange kids candy and stuff when they come to your door. Why should I have to pay for that? It cracked me up as it the disconnect did not seem to bother them. I mean they had no trouble going to strangers doors and taking the candy and chips given out. It was an interesting observation tempered by irony that they could not or would not comprehend. How funny is that and what does that say about the future of Halloween?

Ciao for now!