More Thoughts from a Long Weekend

I am back. I had something funny to discuss. Discuss? That is a load of crap. This is a monologue. The conversation always goes one way. I have to really ask "Is there anybody out there? Just nod if you read me." Who said all those Pink Floyd songs were a waste of time?



It was a relaxing holiday Monday for me. I got to workout and do some work. I was home alone as the Lad was at baseball camp and the Wife was at work. I rather enjoyed it. I had almost forgotten what that was like.


I am a solitary creature. I like you humans and enjoy the interaction. I also know I need to recharge my batteries by being alone with nobody making demands on my time or attention. That is rare, I am realizing. I have always been this way. I can recall when working for my father in the summer, I would come home after five and need an hour to "veg" in front of the television undisturbed before I could be civil to anybody in the house. I am like that still, but I do not get that "veg" time so readily.



The sad part is I know this and have been upfront about it, yet it is not respected. Then, when I snap at the Lad or Wife, I am the bad guy. Yet, the warning "Do Not Feed The Bear" have been posted, not heeded and you blame the bear for being a bear. I get it because it is easier to blame somebody else than to take responsibility for your own actions and doing something that you know the consequences of and accepting them if you choose that course of action.



I spend too much time "reading" and "feeling" other people's emotional states that I find it draining. It is the curse that goes with my empathetic gifts. Of course, I may be delusional. Speaking of which, my delusional "friend" has been calling and calling all weekend. I could not be bothered to hear the story, again, so I screened my calls. Man, she just cannot get the message. Why do her "voices" not tell her to stop calling me repeatedly? Her fucking voices are doubly useless to me. Man, it is tough to be me, I tell ya.



Going to run. Ciao! I almost lost this post so I thank the Autosave feature.